Come to senses.

I have to make the right choices.
this aint gonna bring me anywhere,
because it escalated to nothing.
me and my stupid thoughts.
perhaps that 3 defining moments didn't knock the brains out of me.
the message was clear. I didn't heed.
I've got to get myself together,
to be strong , take it in my stride and persevere on.
there is no point in this. it's futile.
the war just ended.

i feel terribly down and so damn lousy.